Finally at home, feeling horrible, knowing that I should learn another language, that I should improve my English, thinking a lot about life, relationships, pain, now I understand the lyrics by the iconic South African band Just Jinger, with their song, Painting Hours.

Just Jinger - Painting Hours

And surely I have learned my lesson

A lesson there was sure to learn

And lessons only make you stronger

So strong that they can burn

And slowly it all fades to nothing

While nothing really fades away

And nothing always leads to something

And something got in my way

I'm painting flowers, I paint for hours,

The end the same

I'm painting flowers, I pain for hours,

I start to feel again

I never really thought it easy

And easy thoughts just never pay

It's easy to be close to someone

And someone came real close today

Have you ever been in so much pain

That life seems difficult to live

Try and find out simple things to do

And look around